Bearskin Read online

  Dedication

  For Rosa

  and

  for Nancy

  Epigraph

  THE BEAUTY OF THE RATTLESNAKE IS IN ITS THREAT.

  —Jim Harrison, “Suite of Unreason”

  Contents

  Cover

  Title Page

  Dedication

  Epigraph

  Prologue

  One

  Two

  Three

  Four

  Five

  Six

  Seven

  Eight

  Nine

  Ten

  Eleven

  Twelve

  Thirteen

  Fourteen

  Fifteen

  Sixteen

  Seventeen

  Eighteen

  Nineteen

  Twenty

  Twenty-One

  Twenty-Two

  Twenty-Three

  Twenty-Four

  Twenty-Five

  Twenty-Six

  Twenty-Seven

  Twenty-Eight

  Twenty-Nine

  Thirty

  Thirty-One

  Thirty-Two

  Thirty-Three

  Thirty-Four

  Thirty-Five

  Thirty-Six

  Thirty-Seven

  Thirty-Eight

  Thirty-Nine

  Forty

  Forty-One

  Forty-Two

  Forty-Three

  Forty-Four

  Forty-Five

  Forty-Six

  Forty-Seven

  Forty-Eight

  Forty-Nine

  Fifty

  Fifty-One

  Fifty-Two

  Fifty-Three

  Fifty-Four

  Fifty-Five

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  Copyright

  About the Publisher

  Prologue

  That first night Rice held a section of cast-iron water pipe under his pillow and pretended to sleep. He’d paid for the pipe, wrapped at one end with skateboard grip tape, with the last flat damp C-note from under the insole of his boot, plus promises of more, his American girlfriend visiting soon, bringing cash, three hundred U.S. dollars all told. He knew he’d probably been fleeced.

  His cellmate read a folded El Universal in his bunk, shuffling the pages every few minutes. Without taking his eyes from the paper he lit a cigarette and smoked it fast. In several hours he had not once acknowledged Rice’s presence.

  The light changed, shadows, two men coming through the open cell door. Sooner than he’d thought. Someone had already run the necessary calculations, weighed the risks, made this decision. Rice was unimportant except he was important to the young woman, which gave the DEA leverage with her if they offered to bring him back to the States. Preemptively removing that leverage was classic Sinaloa: shrewd, brutal expediency.

  Afterward they would watch the young woman. She would have no more reason to give them up, and every reason not to—she was a professional, and she would keep her head.

  These two, the ones they’d sent, they had to know he would be fresh, still scared, thrumming with adrenaline.

  They may not have known about the pipe.

  He waited until they were close, until one reached out to hold his head back, to expose his throat and chest and belly, the heat from the hand was there, almost touching.

  Twelve seconds later he was wounded in several places but the shiv was more of an assassin’s weapon than a defensive one and both men lay on the floor. His iron pipe had rolled under the bunk. He stomped once on the first man’s neck, the one who had reached for his head. He’d never killed, never even seriously hurt anyone in his life. He seemed to be watching himself from some remove in this, the first of the dissociative fugues that would become so commonplace he couldn’t imagine a time without them. Watching, knowing already that he had become unfamiliar—not another person, he would never make that claim—but rather a version of himself that he would come to believe was monstrous.

  He’d raised up his boot to break the man’s neck when a voice behind him said, “Stop.”

  He stopped.

  His cellmate watched him over the top of his newspaper.

  “They’ll come back if I don’t.”

  “More will come if you do. Cut their heels.”

  “What?”

  “The tendons. De Aquiles.”

  He knelt beside the first man and hacked at the tendon with one of the shivs they had dropped: a long nail, sharpened on the concrete floor, embedded in a wooden handle. He held the leg and stabbed and scraped with the point of the nail and the man groaned and tried to roll over. The handle of the shiv was slick in Rice’s hand. Blood trickled down from an ugly ripped stab wound in his forearm.

  A metallic click behind his ear, the cellmate standing there with an open folding knife. He turned it and offered the black plastic handle.

  “All four,” he said.

  Rice wondered idly at the status of a man who could carry a knife like this inside. The blade was strange-looking, like the curved, hooked beak of a cartoon bird. It had a serrated edge, and the tendons parted at its touch, the calf muscles reacting in spasm, leaping away to bunch and squirm.

  The second man didn’t react to the cuts, and he didn’t bleed as much as the first.

  “This one might be dead.”

  “He’s not dead.”

  A guard came and the cellmate spoke to him at the door and he dragged the two men away, one at a time.

  Rice wiped the knife on his pants leg and handed it back. His cellmate took it without a word, turned and sat on his bunk, picked up his newspaper.

  He went to his own bunk, reached underneath for his iron pipe, cleaned it on the underside of his thin mattress. The gash in his forearm was still bleeding, so he tore off part of his sheet to make a compress. When the blood stopped seeping through he tore two strips and bound the compress to his arm. He slid his pipe beneath his pillow and he lay down but he didn’t sleep. Later he would remember this night for the obvious reasons, plus another, which was the irony that his first lesson in CERESO was one of mercy, of restraint.

  He lay in his bunk. Outside, the cool desert night scraped quietly against the concrete walls of the prison. He didn’t sleep.

  One

  The bees in the wall attacked in suicide pacts of two, three, five at once. They flew at Rice’s face, and he brushed them away with his gloves. He’d lost count of the stings. One landed on his lip and tried to crawl into his left nostril, and while he swatted at it, snorting like a deer, another stung him in the center of his forehead. He blinked hard and kept working, almost finished now. He jammed the claw of his crowbar under the thin panels and snapped them away from the studs, working from floor to ceiling. When the nails were loosened he reached back for the sledgehammer, smashed the whole section clattering to the floor.

  He stepped away from the wall and rested the head of the sledge on his boot. A breeze blew in the open door of the cabin, stirring up dust. His eyes itched and his nose was running. Sweat ran down his cheeks. He’d started before dawn and now all he had left was this six-foot section of panels he’d saved for last because of the hive. Part of his job up here was eradicating invasive species, but these European honeybees had made it onto the protected list, probably because they’d been around for about five hundred years and were famously dying off from some new ailment.

  That last sting above his eyebrows had begun to throb like an ice-cream headache. He blew his nose in a dusty paper towel and watched the bees crawling on the panels. They moved like a drunken marching band—ranks and columns that circled, broke apart, coalesced into new shapes. A couple hundred nervous defenders, vibrating with colle
ctive outrage, waiting to see what Rice would do next. Bees were purposeful creatures and they had no time for this impertinent primate with his bent iron and oversize hammer.

  He exhaled a long breath toward the wall, wondering how he was going to get rid of the bees without killing them. At the least, he had to pull those last sections of paneling so he could see what he was dealing with. He tied a bandana over the lower part of his face and buttoned the sleeves and collar of his work shirt. As he approached, the humming in the wall increased in pitch, an unmistakable warning, but he set the crowbar in place and pulled. Nails snug in thick oak studs for the better part of a century screeched coming out, and then something broke and a piece of paneling snapped away and fell on the floor. A yellowish mass seethed there as the hive-mind paused to gather itself, then all the bees attacked at once.

  He stopped running in the grass behind the cabin, brushing bees from his hair and off his shirt, his bandana fallen around his neck. A cloud of angry bees boiled in the doorway but hadn’t followed, apparently content to eject him from the cabin. The hot sun pressed on his shoulders, the air outside clean and pleasant to breathe. Dragonflies swooped and hovered over a fecund riot of chest-high bluestem and orchard grass. This late in the summer, the crickets sang all day, and from the tall trees at the edge of the forest came the neurotic pulse and whirr of dog-day cicadas. Overhead, the long green wedge of Turk Mountain loomed like a great wave breaking northward.

  No other human being lived within miles. Rice presided alone over seven thousand acres of private nature preserve: he was the caretaker, the science tech. He drove the John Deere tractor. He’d exaggerated his construction experience on the job application, probably one reason they’d hired a guy with his record. That and the fact that he was a qualified biological science technician who looked like he could take care of himself. He’d agreed to do the work on the cabin so the owners wouldn’t hire a bunch of carpenters to drive up in the mornings and ruin his solitude.

  His neck ached, and when he took off a glove and reached up to touch below his ear he felt another quick jab of pain, like getting stung again. Something came away under his fingernail. A bulb of bee guts, attached to a tiny barbed stinger. All these bees had jammed their stingers into his skin and pulled away, leaving behind vital organs, and flown off to die. What a system. The stinging bees were females, nonbreeders, kamikazes all—apparently their individual survival meant little enough. He held the stinger in the sunlight, close to his face, looking for his future there, extispicy in miniature.

  A shadow rushed him from the right and he dropped into a crouch and took two quick steps toward the doorway before his mind caught up with his reflexes. A vulture careened overhead, its wings hissing in the air as its shadow slid over the grass and flashed up the clapboard cabin wall.

  He stood straight and breathed, grinning at himself. His pulse slowed but the thing that wasn’t quite fear—it always felt more like recognition: there it is, here it comes—took a few moments to pass.

  Six months now, since he’d moved up here. He was sure no one knew where he was.

  He picked up the glove he’d dropped, stepped back out in the grass. The vultures always showed up around this time, after the sun had warmed the earth, lifting like paper kites in the thermal boiling up from the meadow.

  “Goddamn buzzard,” he said, without malice.

  Two more appeared, flying one behind the other in tight formation. They banked at the edge of the forest and beat the air with a dozen choppy wingbeats, sailed past the cabin again. They turned their naked black heads to look at him as they passed. He waved, thinking it was best to act friendly. They seemed impatient to be away and soaring, to put the world in proper perspective—four thousand feet up with the land unrolling like a map beneath them, a road atlas with thick, bloodred lines for the cornucopian highways, thin fuchsia for the secondaries. Certain pastures would be shaded pink for stillborn lambs or lightning-struck cows. These black vultures were smaller than the redheaded turkey vultures, and they tended to be less patient with the dying. Last month he’d seen a piece in the paper about a new suburb in northern Virginia where the local vultures were attacking house pets. A flock of the birds would spot a geriatric Pekingese hobbling too far from the house and swarm on it like flesh-eating beetles, pull it to pieces in its own backyard while the neighbors’ kids gaped from an upstairs window.

  He was watching the vultures, feeling his face starting to get puffy, remembering he used to be allergic to bee stings when he was a kid and maybe he ought to walk over to the lodge and take a Benadryl just in case, and what exactly was he going to do about the bees now anyway, when a large animal walked out of the woods at the far end of the meadow. It was a quarter mile away, contorted by quivering heat waves. He squinted, shaded his eyes against the glare from the sky.

  He’d been seeing bears. At first it was just sign—tracks and piles of scat and overturned rocks and logs—but in the past few weeks the bears had started showing themselves. A female with two first-year cubs had been feeding mornings in a blackberry thicket at the bottom of the meadow, and over on Serrett Mountain he’d glimpsed a huge adult male that ran with a limp. Two days ago a sleek juvenile with one scabby ear split in a fight had crossed the driveway at dusk. Rice had found tracks in the old fire road not thirty yards from the lodge, the rear print like a barefoot man’s, the front a big broad paw. Now he locked his garbage in the tractor shed and carted it to the public Dumpster every few days instead of letting it pile up.

  The figure had paused in the open, cautious maybe, but now it was moving again, coming down the long slope of the fire road. It shimmered and shifted in the hot air, a bearish wraith floating just above the earth. As it approached it gradually took shape: a person, a man, a bearded man with a large rucksack on his back, his legs hidden in the tall grass.

  Rice jogged past the tractor shed and toward the back porch of the lodge, keeping his eye on the intruder. He would’ve been less surprised by a bear. The gate at the entrance was always locked, and he’d never seen anyone walk out of that forest. He kept a loaded .45 in the drawer of his bedside table in willful violation of his employment agreement, and that’s where he was headed.

  At the top of the steps, Rice turned for one more look before he darted inside for the pistol. Something was wrong with the man’s left arm—it was short, and it swung in a rhythm that didn’t quite match his stride, like a child’s arm attached to an adult.

  Then he was in the yard, as if he’d leaped forward while Rice blinked. A moment before, he’d been out in the meadow, a wild creature Rice could observe with detachment, but he’d crossed the boundary so abruptly that Rice wondered if he’d blacked out for a moment.

  His legs felt solid, steady, his feet flat on the rough floorboards. This strange man walking toward the porch.

  Rice raised his hand, palm out, like a cop halting traffic. “Hey, buddy,” he said. “You lost?”

  The man stopped and grimaced, bared his straight yellow teeth. He was hatless, his face tan and deeply lined above the dark beard. Probably in his forties, though guessing the age of mountain people was always chancy. His eyes were light green, flat and expressionless. For an instant Rice thought he might be blind, some sightless forest wanderer come to visit, a prophet, purveyor of miracles.

  The man shrugged out of his pack, dropped it on the ground, and stood there with his hips loose and his weight on one leg. The left arm was a stump, ending just above where the elbow should have been. He wore dusty black boots and tattered fatigue pants, a torn sleeveless shirt wet and sticking to his flat belly. A sheath knife hung from a leather belt just behind his right hip.

  He asked something in a raspy voice. It sounded like “Yowl spear in the otter?”

  “What?”

  He cupped his hand and tilted it to his mouth. The arm was long and tanned, with corded muscles working under the skin like snakes. High on the deltoid was the crude tattoo of a humanoid figure with the head of some carnivo
re, its mouth open and showing teeth.

  Spare any water.

  Rice was supposed to keep trespassers off the property, but the day was hot and he’d lived most of his life in the desert and he wasn’t going to refuse anyone a drink of water. He’d also dispensed with the idea of the pistol. There were good reasons for keeping the .45 handy, but defending himself from a one-armed man with a backpack wasn’t one of them. He found an old army canteen in the kitchen closet, rinsed and filled it at the sink, watching the man through the screen window. He stood in the yard with his head tilted back, following a bird or insect flying overhead, but as Rice watched he dropped his gaze and stared hard at the window, just for a second, as if Rice had called out. Then he turned his attention to the meadow, intent for a moment, now relaxing, watching the horizon again. He reminded Rice of an alert dog, perceptive of faint sounds and old scents, ghosts and phantasms.

  The canteen filled and overflowed, wetting the felt cover, cool on Rice’s hand. Sweat ran from under his arms, trickled down his sides to the waistband of his pants. He popped two Benadryl tablets from a blister pack and washed them down with a can of Coors. He felt disoriented—objects across the room seemed far away, the kitchen floor tilting under him. In the past year and a half he’d become increasingly prone to minor fugues and fits of reverie. He would pause in his outside work—biological data collection, hacking at multiflora rose with a sling blade, tacking up Posted No Trespassing signs—and awaken later from a long daydream, vacant and disconcerted, his butt asleep in the dirt and several species of insect crawling on his skin, bites itching his ankles, a dog tick embedded behind his knee. He never remembered what he’d been dreaming about, just a vague sense of relentless motion, of buzzing and humming, grass vibrating in the air.

  You’ve been up here too long by yourself, he thought. Turning into a hermit. Greeting imaginary strangers. At the last minute he pulled another beer from the fridge and carried it out to the porch with the water.

  He pitched the canteen underhand from the top step and the man caught it nonchalantly, held it between his legs so he could unscrew the top. He drank in long gulps with his eyes closed. When he’d finished, he wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, nodded thanks, and tossed the empty canteen back to Rice, declining the offered beer. He was completely unimpaired, his movements smooth and powerful, that Popeye arm more than adequate. His forehead rose straight and broad under a tangle of thick black hair. There was that odd, blind man’s stare, and his beard obscured a heavy chin and lips that barely moved when he spoke. He burped quietly and rocked back on his heels. He seemed to have something else on his mind but was restraining himself, perhaps out of politeness.